I love yoghurt and I tell you, Meiji produces one of the best yoghurt I've ever tried! Low in fat and contains milk calcium. The fruits comes in huge pieces! Yummy. Strawberry flavour is the best, followed by Aloe Vera. Mmmmmmmm. I'm going to have one cup later.

After the TKD training just now, my emotions had almost hit rock-bottom... well, almost...

The basics were ok asa usual. Nothing changed and that's precisely why I'm feeling down. I'm not improving. It's been almost 5 years and now, holding on to a black-tip, I think I don't deserve the belt. I suck big time! Sparring was terrible. I was terrible. I suck. Chief Instructor was disappointed. I was disappointed. "Ni Hao Xiang Mei You Jing Bu Dao Hor?" (It seems that you had not improve at all right?). All I can afford was a light nod and a forced smile. What else can I say? It seems that I had reached my peak. I can't break through!

I was walking back home from the MRT.

Today seems exceptionally warm as compared to pass few days. I'm looking outta my windows now and gosh, the sun is scorching hot! Even the air feels warm as I breathe in. Darn, then I guess I'll be like gasping for oxygen later during training.

Just came back home with mum from Citibank to deal with some of her investment and stuff like that. Hmmmmmmm, the lady seems nice... and very pretty of course. Haha. From the stuff on her desk, she's the Top Sales in Citibank this year! Wow, kewl!

After that was lunch at Cartel. Then shop for some grocery and stuff and now, viola, I'm back home. Tired, sleepy... I seems to be incurring a sleep debt but I'm wondering why... Hmmmmmm...

Anyway, read some of the reports on the little girl that was being "thrown" down by an ex-air stewardess. I don't know if I should feel sad for the lady. Well, actually I pitied both the lady and that little girl. Something that was wrongfully did to the lady by the little girl's parents caused her death. A message from God perhaps? Retribution? I seriously think it's time for the parents of the little girl to think about what they had done to the lady. Although it's really a misfortune for the little girl to die but it could've been prevented isn't it if you had not done anything wrong to the lady right? Have both her money and body cheated. Sad. I felt sad for the lady too. But she could've been more calm when handling such issues ya. But when your emotions are being totally destroyed, how can you still control your thoughts? I think I'll jump.

Gosh, enough of this case le.

88, a lucky number ya for the Chinese. But haiz, today ain't too lucky for me. Shucks!

Ok peps, I passed my Theory Trial Test finally and I barely scrapped through. 45 points out of 50! Phew! The passing score is 45! Heng ah! So now, I'll be up to the Riding Theory Test ya. But it's in November, so there's still sometime for preparation.

Anyway, today's practical lesson is soooooooooo fucked up. It's not my day really. Thomas had even proceeded further to the turning thingy while I'm still on the mian circuit. I tell you, the feeling sucks! I'm wondering if it's me or the bike. The biting point is so difficult to find and both my mirrors kept on dropping off my view. The left handle bar kept on shaking vigorously throughout the entire lesson. Shucks. Should have requested a change but on what grounds? The bike is still working ya. Darn. Throughout the entire lesson, my engine stalled for at least 10 times! 10 times mind you! Wah kaoz! I feel so lousy now.

Thursday got one more practical lesson coming up in the evening. Hope it wouldn't be as bad.

When I was back in unit just now to endorse my MC, encik was kinda requesting me standby for this month's guard duty. What the heck?!? I don't want to do ya! And besides, TKD IVP Competition is coming soon and I think by next week, the teams would be formed and I'll be helping out in their training. So, I really don't want to go back camp unless there's a recall! And Darren, if you don't know anything on what I do, please do me a favour -- SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH UP! The things that you were saying is really NOT helping in front of encik ok. *Pissed

I'm tired and sleepy.

Meeting Hans later for movie. Tim Burton's Corpse Bride! I've been waiting to catch that movie. Next one will be Everlasting Regrets (Chang Hen Ge), starring Sammi Cheng. I love her ya! It's a sad story though. Bring some tissue in ya! Haha.

Now, I better not doze off inside the cinema later. Haha.

Fianlly, after so many years, I'm a TKD black-tip! Yup, a senior senior belt! Just 1 more step to black next year. How happy ya! But yesterday was pretty screwed up. All of the brown belt were called together by our instructor for a stern warning from the chief examiner to "do our pattern properly". Huh? We didn't make any mistake ok, but according to the chief examiner, all off us lack the force. Hmmmmmmmm??? Never mind.

I'm gald that I've passed. Now for black!

Anyway, my IBS is still bothering me till now and I'm getting irritated by it. Darn!

Ok, I've finally got my personal helmet. Nothing fantastic, just a simple and normal yet cheap helmet. It's only $28! Way below the price that I've been guessing! Since most probably I'm not getting a bike, so there's no point for me getting a really nice one ya. And if I really get a bike, I'll use this as a pillion rider helmet. So smut! Haha.

So, for those who wants to know where to buy, please don't ask me where 'cause I followed Aaron there. All I know it's somewhere near the Singapore Flea Market. Oh ya, the shop name is Ah Boy. Hmmmmmm, interesting ya! Haha.

Anyway, I was at Bugis almost the entire later half of the day with Aaron. Lunch, then buy helmet, then shop around, then sit and chit chat, then prepare for his video taking, then THAT thingy happened AGAIN! AARON!!! The last time at Bishan, he wanted me to help him take video for his portfolio and guess what, he brought everything, including the view-cam but he forgot his tape. Yeah! Then today, he remembered everything and there was no power. Wah! Sian! We've planned what to show. We've planned what to shoot. We've planned the angles. And yes, no power! Argh!

So, tomorrow after is grading at Toa Payoh Indoor Stadium. Eh, it's already past mid-night, so it's TODAY! Haha. I think I'm not worried anymore, but more nervous now. Bleah...

Wish me luck!

Was reading my friends blogs as usual when I'm really bored when I came to i.Lix blog. This was what he wrote: I am at a crossroad now, not really knowing what I want to do. When I was young, I knew I wanted to be a symphony conductor. Then I grew up knowing I want to be in suits, commanding my advertising or marketing team. But how does one really get started?

So, now I'm actually in this problem too ya. When I was really young, I wanted to be part of police force, nabbing gangsters and stuff like that. Then, I wanted to be a singer. Ok, too far-fetched but like was saying, when I was young. As I entered secondary level, I wanted to be a military officer. Hmmmmmm, why did I ever habour such thoughts? Then, I wanted to be a teacher. What the? Better don't "Wu Ren Zi Di". When I've entered poly, everything starts to go distorted. My future seemed so narrow. Everything that the society had shown had already some to a conclusion, for peps like me! None scholars + stupid farks + bad results = gleem future. No degree, no talk and when the economy crisis happened, everything came to a naught. Then when I was in unit, Huijian once told me to become a radio DJ since I can talk so well. Eh, can talk don't know how to read the scripts also cannot make it la. So now, I really really don't know what to do! So please please stop asking me what am I going to do after I ORD. I wanted to go into hotel line but all these courses needs $$$ and they don't come cheap! So it's like how am I going to go for it when $$$ is already the main problem? How to get started in the first place? What about the future that it holds?

So...

Future seems gleem... gleemer than before...

I might not be even at a crossroad anymore. A crossroad still has choices to choose from, but I don't have choices at all. I'm at the end of the road with a huge wall blocking it. I'm waiting for the sledge hammer to suddenly appear on my hand now so that I can whack it down.

Gosh, I'm narcissistic and paranoid! Hey, but I never say i wasn't! Haha. Try it out ya but be prepared to take sometime to complete the super super long questions. Haha.

 

Ok, you all are "permitted" to call me loser for TODAY only! For the THIRD time, I've failed my Theory Trial Test! Can you believe it!?! Darn!

Anyway, Class 2B practical lessons are soooooooooooo fun!

Lesson learnt number 1 -- always bring an extra top.
Reason 1: after that lesson, my tee was so drenched by my sweat, like I've just completed 2.4km run with it! Eeeewwwwww.

Lesson learnt number 2 -- buy your own helmet.
Reason 1: theirs STINKS like hell!
Reason 2: I've got slight rashes around my neck after yesterday's lesson.

But Thomas and I both felt that we are learning pretty fast. Some only can proceed to the big circuit during their 3rd practical while we were already on the big circuit just now for our 2nd practical. Hmmmmmm, not bad. Although I still screwed up a little here and there, but overall, I'm pretty ok. Yeah! I think pretty soon, we will proceed to Lesson 2.

But I think I wouldn't buy a bike if neccesary although I'll keep on learning until Class 2A or even Class 2. It's pretty dangerous on road ya. Cars are what Chinese says "Tie Bao Ren", metal-cover-man while bikes are what we call "Ren Bao Tie", man-cover-metal. So, the difference is there, go figure out yourself.

Gosh, I'm pretty shag after this 2 days of practicals. Darn.

There's still TKD training tonight. Grading is coming and I'm getting more and more worried.

My face was swelling quite badly yesterday until late afternoon where it started to subside. And I though I'l be all ok like usual this morning. Heck. It's still SWOLLEN! Ok, although not as bad but... bad. I look like I have mumps on my left side of my face! Gosh! I look like shit!